The urge to explore the whole range of sensations was always present in me though this was not always obvious fact for me. Actually I probably always sensed that you whole self is making you search for things which offer you not only a pure satisfaction but more like intensity of sensations. Besides, sex as just a way to steam off was initially uninteresting to me. Personally, there should be something above the physical stuff. Eventually I came to see BDSM as a whole vision of my inner urges melted with my sexual desires.
Probably one of the most erotic arts, BDSM is giving me the opportunity not only to interact with a partner on a more intimate level but also to get to the awareness of my own potential and face my fears.
As BDSM is not an abuse or a kind of violence, you require a real heck of trust and intimacy. The thing is that BDSM play makes you balance you on the edge, and sometimes borders on a fine line between things you can or can't tolerate. It's quite good that there are certain rules for BDSM and while you follow them you are sure to get maximum pleasure out of it.
While you go through a certain tension and extremity during BDSM exploration you get in touch with yourself and then relieve is just great. You just go the whole way to the darkest side of yourself and search for that border you won't be able to cross any more. The overall thought of experiencing pleasure through negative sensations is pretty thrilling in itself. But you never know it for sure until you try it. It's all or nothing after all.
